Thursday, April 21, 2011

an 8 year olds perception....


Kids.....you gotta love 'em, right? They are so sweet. They are so entertaining! what they hear, see, observe is through a different mindset than us adults. Truly, kids do say they darndest things sometimes that its just makes you sit back and enjoy their spin on the life that surrounds them.
What am I getting at? Ethan.
Ethan and I had an interesting/entertaining conversation last Saturday. I had taken the boys to a ward Easter party and there was a zipline to ride. I tried to get Ethan to give it a try, but he didnt want to. (He's not the most outgoing child. He tends to stay within his comfort zone, not that there's anything wrong with that....) I pushed a little more to get him to go, but the answer was inevitably 'no'. I decided to leave it alone, but I asked in a playful manner, "where did you get you lack of adventure, dude, cuz it certainly isn't from me?!" To which Ethan replied, "from dad! He is the biggest scaredy cat. He's afraid of everything!" I tilt my head to the side and look in puzzlement. I am trying to figure out why Ethan could possibly think his dad would be a scaredy cat. it simply isn't so. I smile at Ethan, give a little chuckle and inquire further..."Ethan, please explain". Ethan smiles back with the cutest grin and giggles himself, replying, "mom, dad is totally scared of everything! He, like, is even scared of my hair, duh! He's a scaredy cat!" Again, imagine my face in complete awe of his last few statements and my grin getting bigger. Ethan continues, "don't you remember? at my baptism? Dad was cryng like crazy because he had to put his hands on my head! He was scared to touch my spiky hair. he wouldn't stop crying!" My chuckle just burst out into a full on belly laugh! hahahahahahahahahahah......can you believe it!?! This whole time he thought his dad was crying because he was afraid to touch his hair! *joyful sigh* Aren't kids the best?!

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Oliver is 3....

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On Thursday, my little Olie turned 3! My little sweet monkey boy! And boy did we make it all about him! He spent allday Thursday with his Nana and Poppop and they gave him the coolest toy gun EVER! (I even want to fight over it so I can have a turn to play with it). Thursday night we went to Olie's favorite restaurant, Someburros, for mini bean chimis, and chips and hot sauce (which he really does like). Then Friday, we headed over to my brother Christian's house to celebrate some more and have cake and ice cream. (Thanks Liz for providing the delicious dessert)
It has been a wonderful couple days, and I think Olie has enjoyed the attention. (who wouldn't) Happy Birthday Oliver!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Strip Me

STRIP ME - Natasha Bedingfield

Everyday I fight for
All my future somethings
A thousand little wars
I have to choose between
I could spend a lifetime
Earning things that I don't need
But that's like chasing rainbows
And coming home empty
And if you strip me,
Strip it all away
If you strip me,
What would you find
If you strip me,
Strip it all away
Ill be alright

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

I don't need a microphone, yeah,
To say what I been thinking
My heart is like a loudspeaker
Tha'ts always on eleven
And if you strip me,
Strip it all away
If you strip me,
What would you find

If you strip me,
Strip it all away
I'm still the same

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

'cuz when it all boils down
At the end of the day
It's what you do and say
That makes you who you are
Makes you think about it,
Think about it
Doesn't it
Sometimes all it takes is one voice

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

This is my new favorite song, my own personal 'Me' song. :o)

Friday, March 25, 2011

my nieces...



Last weekend, my soon to be nieces, Natalie and Ashley, got to spend the night with me and my boys in my new apartment. It was so fun having girls around! I am always surrounded by boys. I was super excited just for the plain fact.....I get to do their hair! Yay! So, I did! It was fun to play. We also made some yummy treats and played games. It was a nice sleep over and I really enjoyed having them over. (The boys did too, but they thought I took too long with their hair.) I hope I get to have them again soon. :)

(No they weren't sticking their noses to the door for being in trouble....just showing off their hairstyles)


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Thoughts

I am not sure what I believe
Someday I will figure it out.
Until then, I will have some questions
And I'm sure a little doubt.
When I feel a little despair,
I can always seek guidance in prayer.
I want to teach my children.
I want them to learn and grow.
I want them to learn what I didn't know.
I don't want to hide.
I don't want to feel ashamed.
I want to deal, accept, move on and
Reflect on the knowledge I've gained.
I want to share with others my life experiences, good or bad.
Perhaps what insight I have to offer might make another not feel so sad.
I want to be treated with respect.
Be an equal and not be told I'm wrong.
This is when compromising comes along.
Not everything is black and white.
Sometimes there is a little gray.
I strive to do best I can...
I can only do that day to day.
~Afton Clouse~

Saturday, March 5, 2011

My family is good peoples....

I have been through a very challenging week. My limits have been tested. My emotions at a breaking point. My feelings have been hurt and much, much more. Through all of this though....I have realized how important family really is. And how much my family supports me and loves me through one of the most challenging times of my life. I am not one who has an easy time asking for help or imposing on others. I will do everything I can to try to do it on my own and if I can't I will pretend like I can.
This week has been awful. I cannot begin to describe what I have been going through and I will spare you the details. One of the things I have needed was my family and they have been there all along, I have just been a little blind, or perhaps prideful about it. My future sister in law Liz has been fantastic to talk to since she has been through similar challenging times. My mom and sister in law Tanisha have been a huge help in my time of need. My dad has been a listening ear, as well as my brothers. They have offered advice and let me know they care and feel I have made a right decision.
It is because of my family that my apartment is furnished as much as it is. And now, today, even moreso, since my brother decided to buy me a much needed mattress so my child no longer slept on the floor. (Don't get me wrong...he loves sleeping on the floor...its kinda like camping, especially when you turn it into a fort, but he is super happy to have a bed now). Not only did they buy me the mattress but 3 matching bed sets for all my boys' beds. It is complete, and I am overwhelmed with love and appreciation for the family I have been blessed with. So, I guess what I am saying is....I love you and I thank you. It is nice to know that they are there for me emotionally, financially, or even just foolishly there to make me smile. My family is good peoples and NO ONE can tell me differently! :)

Saturday, February 19, 2011

That was embarassing!

It doesn't seem complicated, does it? Its a simple oven/stove top combo. It doesn't take a genius to figure it out if it works or not. Mine was not working. I didn't want to be one of those tenants that complained about every little thing (I have complained some) but I really wanted/needed my oven and it simply was NOT working. I filled out a work order, ran an errand and when I came back there was a note stating nothing was wrong with the oven, it worked fine. Hmmmm.....I thoughtfully gave the maintenance guy the benefit of the doubt. Perhaps it did miraculously start working. I set the oven to 400 degrees. I let it sit for 10 minutes, put my hand in the oven and....did NOT burn myself. It wasn't even hot! I got very irritated. I wanted my oven fixed. I called the front office, complained that it was still NOT fixed. They apologized and sent the maintenance man back to my apartment. He asked, "that oven still giving you a problem?" Me: "yes! It does not heat up!" Maintenance man: I think I know what the problem is....you need to turn it on." Excuse me?! I think I know how to turn the dial to 400 degrees correctly. Its not that complicated. Maintenance man: You have to turn this knob here, to bake or broil. Ummmm....ummm....*imagine a red face, eyes turned downward, and a ridiculous look upon my face at my ignorance* I stand corrected. Apparently it does take a genius to work an oven and I am not one of them.....that was embarassing!