Strip Me

STRIP ME - Natasha Bedingfield

Everyday I fight for
All my future somethings
A thousand little wars
I have to choose between
I could spend a lifetime
Earning things that I don't need
But that's like chasing rainbows
And coming home empty
And if you strip me,
Strip it all away
If you strip me,
What would you find
If you strip me,
Strip it all away
Ill be alright

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

I don't need a microphone, yeah,
To say what I been thinking
My heart is like a loudspeaker
Tha'ts always on eleven
And if you strip me,
Strip it all away
If you strip me,
What would you find

If you strip me,
Strip it all away
I'm still the same

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

'cuz when it all boils down
At the end of the day
It's what you do and say
That makes you who you are
Makes you think about it,
Think about it
Doesn't it
Sometimes all it takes is one voice

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
but you ain't taking that from me
Oh oh no you ain't taking that from me

This is my new favorite song, my own personal 'Me' song. :o)

my nieces...

Last weekend, my soon to be nieces, Natalie and Ashley, got to spend the night with me and my boys in my new apartment. It was so fun having girls around! I am always surrounded by boys. I was super excited just for the plain fact.....I get to do their hair! Yay! So, I did! It was fun to play. We also made some yummy treats and played games. It was a nice sleep over and I really enjoyed having them over. (The boys did too, but they thought I took too long with their hair.) I hope I get to have them again soon. :)

(No they weren't sticking their noses to the door for being in trouble....just showing off their hairstyles)

Thoughts

I am not sure what I believe
Someday I will figure it out.
Until then, I will have some questions
And I'm sure a little doubt.
When I feel a little despair,
I can always seek guidance in prayer.
I want to teach my children.
I want them to learn and grow.
I want them to learn what I didn't know.
I don't want to hide.
I don't want to feel ashamed.
I want to deal, accept, move on and
Reflect on the knowledge I've gained.
I want to share with others my life experiences, good or bad.
Perhaps what insight I have to offer might make another not feel so sad.
I want to be treated with respect.
Be an equal and not be told I'm wrong.
This is when compromising comes along.
Not everything is black and white.
Sometimes there is a little gray.
I strive to do best I can...
I can only do that day to day.
~Afton Clouse~

My family is good peoples....

I have been through a very challenging week. My limits have been tested. My emotions at a breaking point. My feelings have been hurt and much, much more. Through all of this though....I have realized how important family really is. And how much my family supports me and loves me through one of the most challenging times of my life. I am not one who has an easy time asking for help or imposing on others. I will do everything I can to try to do it on my own and if I can't I will pretend like I can.
This week has been awful. I cannot begin to describe what I have been going through and I will spare you the details. One of the things I have needed was my family and they have been there all along, I have just been a little blind, or perhaps prideful about it. My future sister in law Liz has been fantastic to talk to since she has been through similar challenging times. My mom and sister in law Tanisha have been a huge help in my time of need. My dad has been a listening ear, as well as my brothers. They have offered advice and let me know they care and feel I have made a right decision.
It is because of my family that my apartment is furnished as much as it is. And now, today, even moreso, since my brother decided to buy me a much needed mattress so my child no longer slept on the floor. (Don't get me wrong...he loves sleeping on the floor...its kinda like camping, especially when you turn it into a fort, but he is super happy to have a bed now). Not only did they buy me the mattress but 3 matching bed sets for all my boys' beds. It is complete, and I am overwhelmed with love and appreciation for the family I have been blessed with. So, I guess what I am saying is....I love you and I thank you. It is nice to know that they are there for me emotionally, financially, or even just foolishly there to make me smile. My family is good peoples and NO ONE can tell me differently! :)